Its Own Beautifully Unruly Way

‘Life rarely makes any more sense when things are done ‘in order’. Life makes sense when we are centered in our hearts and we let go of resisting how our unique journey needs to unfold in its own beautifully, unruly way’.

That part gets me every time. The answer to the question about how to do just that, might make us go mad right before we realise it lies in the fact that we have to create ourself instead of finding ourself.

It does sound a bit funny, ‘finding’ ourself. As if we were lost, thinking or feeling we’re out of touch with ourself. Maybe you’ve been running around like crazy trying to keep up with a hectic schedule while keeping your boss and friends happy because you’re such a pleaser. Maybe you’ve been going through a rough time and your body doesn’t seem to get on the right track which keeps you from doing the things you love. Maybe you’ve been shaken up by something a person told you and you don’t know what to think. Maybe you’ve fallen in love or out of love and you don’t recognize yourself anymore. Maybe you’re missing someone so much that you can hear your heart break. Maybe you feel like your life is shifting and you’re losing all control. Maybe you’re feeling depressed and you can’t understand why you’re still feeling that way. Maybe you feel like having a knot in your stomach when you think about all of your questions. Maybe you’re looking for the wrong answers at the wrong places at the wrong time. Maybe you’re just trying too hard to find answers you’re never going to get if you keep on looking for them, just like a dog chasing its tail. Maybe we should just stop thinking and breathe.

Sometimes, all you need is for time to pass by and then it’ll come to you. Of course you’re not lost, you are right there. I see you. I feel you. You’re still in there. So what, it’s not the path you thought you had in mind, it may not be going the way it’s supposed to go or as you had imagined | liked | planned. That’s life in it’s purest! That’s what it’s all about. Don’t let that hold you back from becoming who you are. Yes, it’s a rough pat(c)h sometimes, but it all contributes to your being. It does define you and you have to find the courage to choose how you want it to define you. Experiences make ourselves grow, and sometimes we grow harder than we know. But your bricks have been laying around you all this time, just waiting for you to know how to handle them again so you can continue (re)building and creating your own path again. Because honestly, that’s what we’ve been doing all along although you might not even have known it. Why stop now, right? It’s good to be aware of the new situation, but it’s okay to stop and not think for a while and just breathe. You need time to process things. And while you’re not-thinking, you’re letting go of resisting the fact that you’ve chosen to create your path as of that moment and you’ll get in that place where you can enjoy the simple things in life again. The BIG small things. And that’s where your journey starts to unfold in its own beautifully, unruly way.

‘Live every day as if it’s your last, embracing each experience as if it’s your first.’

Love,

Jessica

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Whispers in the air tonight

Ever since I was a little girl, music has been a huge part of my life. I’ve been dancing since I was three or four years old, I’ve played several instruments and I just really enjoy listening to music. It contributes to my mood. Music itself is such a powerful instrument. I even find it healing. If I’m having a rocky day, music can lift me up again. If I’m watching a movie, it’s not really the images that make me feel a certain way but mostly the kind of music that is playing in the background. And sometimes, music can explain the way I feel. I think we can all identify ourselves with music, it’s an universal language. Heck, dances are created to music which people across the world are dancing to in the same language!

With that being said, remember the song ‘In the air tonight’ by Phil Collins? To me it feels like there is actually something coming your way, but you don’t know what. You can’t pinpoint it. It’s just like when you step outside while the birds are whistling to their favorite song, it’s springtime, the sun is shining and the air is a little humid. Then suddenly the wind comes in and the sky turns dark-greenish. You know something will go down, but not exactly what nor when. You just know you have to get out of there, before hell breaks loose. That’s when the drum starts in the song, or if you have seen the movie ‘Twister’ where the cello comes in. *It’s strange how you can make these weird little links. I can imagine they vary per person. This is how my brain sometimes has it’s own way of thinking, hopefully you still understand my point ‘though!*

Well, in the past few days I could feel it coming in the air. My heart was and is still trying to tell me something. It’s whispering. And these whispers turn into shoutings, but I can’t seem to figure out the words. It can even be deafening sometimes, just like the silence afterwards. Then I’m wondering about what it was that had passed me by, or if it was just the calm before the storm. In the speech Steve Jobs gave at Stanford University – which is one of the most inspirational speeches I have ever read -, he said ‘have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow truly know what you want to become. Everything else is secondary’.

I strongly believe these shoutings are telling me what I want to become and that they will grow louder and louder if I’d neglect them, and by doing so I wouldn’t only be neglecting myself but also withholding myself from anything that could bring me a step closer to more freedom and happiness. For these two, freedom and happiness, are primary united in the heart. It’s clear something’s knocking on my door, asking me to follow my guts and I can hear it coming in the air tonight. So heart, not only am I all yours, I’m all ears.

What are you doing to follow your guts?

Love,

Jessica

P.S. Through my friend M I came across this interesting article on Steve Jobs. It shows that you don’t need to have a diploma in order to be talented. You just have to trust your intuition.