‘Life rarely makes any more sense when things are done ‘in order’. Life makes sense when we are centered in our hearts and we let go of resisting how our unique journey needs to unfold in its own beautifully, unruly way’.
That part gets me every time. The answer to the question about how to do just that, might make us go mad right before we realise it lies in the fact that we have to create ourself instead of finding ourself.
It does sound a bit funny, ‘finding’ ourself. As if we were lost, thinking or feeling we’re out of touch with ourself. Maybe you’ve been running around like crazy trying to keep up with a hectic schedule while keeping your boss and friends happy because you’re such a pleaser. Maybe you’ve been going through a rough time and your body doesn’t seem to get on the right track which keeps you from doing the things you love. Maybe you’ve been shaken up by something a person told you and you don’t know what to think. Maybe you’ve fallen in love or out of love and you don’t recognize yourself anymore. Maybe you’re missing someone so much that you can hear your heart break. Maybe you feel like your life is shifting and you’re losing all control. Maybe you’re feeling depressed and you can’t understand why you’re still feeling that way. Maybe you feel like having a knot in your stomach when you think about all of your questions. Maybe you’re looking for the wrong answers at the wrong places at the wrong time. Maybe you’re just trying too hard to find answers you’re never going to get if you keep on looking for them, just like a dog chasing its tail. Maybe we should just stop thinking and breathe.
Sometimes, all you need is for time to pass by and then it’ll come to you. Of course you’re not lost, you are right there. I see you. I feel you. You’re still in there. So what, it’s not the path you thought you had in mind, it may not be going the way it’s supposed to go or as you had imagined | liked | planned. That’s life in it’s purest! That’s what it’s all about. Don’t let that hold you back from becoming who you are. Yes, it’s a rough pat(c)h sometimes, but it all contributes to your being. It does define you and you have to find the courage to choose how you want it to define you. Experiences make ourselves grow, and sometimes we grow harder than we know. But your bricks have been laying around you all this time, just waiting for you to know how to handle them again so you can continue (re)building and creating your own path again. Because honestly, that’s what we’ve been doing all along although you might not even have known it. Why stop now, right? It’s good to be aware of the new situation, but it’s okay to stop and not think for a while and just breathe. You need time to process things. And while you’re not-thinking, you’re letting go of resisting the fact that you’ve chosen to create your path as of that moment and you’ll get in that place where you can enjoy the simple things in life again. The BIG small things. And that’s where your journey starts to unfold in its own beautifully, unruly way.
‘Live every day as if it’s your last, embracing each experience as if it’s your first.’